WritingMonday Deep Dive

Trade Safety for Significance

18 August 2025

The True Cost of Living Fully

“Find what you love, and let it kill you”

- Charles Bukowski (Allegedly)

In a world full of choices, many people quietly trade their potential for comfort.

They take the role that pays the bills, commit to relationships that feel “fine,” and build routines designed more to protect them than to provoke potential.

On the outside, life may look together but inside, something vital might be missing: the feeling of being truly alive.

Here’s the paradox: the more we try to avoid pain, risk, or exhaustion, the more disconnected we often become from meaning, purpose, and fulfilment.

The people we admire most (the artist, the leader, the craftsperson, the deep lovers of life) don’t hide from the fire. They walk into it, knowing full well they might get burned.

And yet, it’s in the burn that they often find their brilliance.

Some may perceive this as reckless martyrdom … I’d argue it’s more of a conscious choice.

A willingness and an openness to live with real depth.

Let’s explore that a little …

The Life We Choose

There’s a moment (in my experience, often quiet and private) when we realise: I’ve been playing it too safe.

That moment, if honoured, becomes a pivot point.

It marks the beginning of living on purpose, rather than one on autopilot.

Choosing a hill to die on doesn’t mean self-destruction. It means deliberate devotion. Whether it’s a craft, a cause, a person, or a calling, choosing your hill is choosing to be fully awake.

To really feel the cost … pay the price.

And yet through it, still say, “This is worth it.”

We know that true meaning requires effort.

Mastery of your craft requires repetition.

Leadership requires failure.

And all of it requires a version of you that doesn’t hide behind the need for certainty.

“Let it Kill You”

Bukowski’s (apparent) quote at the start of this article: “Find what you love and let it kill you” are often misunderstood as romanticising burnout.

There is some challenge whether he actually said it at all but it’s attributed to an interview he gave coinciding to the publication of his poem Go All The Way.

Whether he said it or not, when I reflect on his poem and when seen through a coaching lens, his words point to something richer:

Commitment without condition.

I believe it’s about devotion to “your thing” whatever that thing may be.

We willingly trade sleep for our young children.

We surrender time to the canvas, the code, the customer, the cause.

We stretch ourselves in service of something greater than comfort.

And yes, it’s tiring but it’s the kind of tired that fills our soul with joy.

Not all tiredness is toxic.

Living With Depth Over Comfort

When you choose depth, you stop seeking guarantees and you start seeking alignment.

Prepare yourself to be misunderstood.

You may lose things - perhaps some things you really didn’t want to lose - but in return, you’ll gain something irreplaceable: absolute clarity on what really matters.

Living fully isn’t about being constantly energised, more being constantly engaged.

You’ll know you’re on the right hill (and doing the right thing) when your effort feels like an absolute pleasure, never a burden.

A quick pause

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Reflection Prompts

What have you been protecting yourself from, and what has it cost you?

Is there something you care about so deeply that you’re willing to go through some pain for it?

What would it mean for you to trade comfort for clarity?

Am you waiting for absolute certainty … or are you willing to choose with nothing more than blind faith?

What does it look like when you live with your full heart and mind in the game?

Final Thought

A life that means something will always ask something of you in return.

Not everything - but something.

Whether your attention, your time, your energy or your comfort. These are the currencies of real meaning.

For sure, there will be times you feel stretched to your edge. Times when you question why you chose this path. Times when it seems easier to step back, dial it in, or soften your ambition.

But that tension? That fatigue? That wrestling? It’s not failure. It’s feedback.

It’s the unmistakable echo of aliveness.

The truth is, we don’t grow by accident - we grow by choice.

And I’ve found that every meaningful choice has a cost of some kind.

So don’t try to light every fire … but do find the one worth fuelling. The one that warms your spirit. The one you’d tend even when no one notices. That’s the thing you burn for.

You don’t have to be perfect, you just have to be willing.

To be seen. To be changed. To be spent even.

Choose your hill. Climb it with courage. And if it leaves you marked, scarred, or feeling slightly broken … take heart.

That’s not the end of your story.

That’s just the beginning of a story worth telling.

Remember, the path to extraordinary is walked with a thousand small steps, you’re doing great!

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Your Small Steps

Isn’t this a glorification of burnout?

No. This is not running yourself into the ground. It’s about making intentional, aligned choices that cost you something because they mean something.

Action: Reflect on one area where you feel joyfully exhausted. What made it worth it?

How do I know which hill is mine?

Start by noticing what stirs strong emotion in you - joy, anger, injustice, compassion. Your hill is often where your values and energy naturally converge.

Action: Journal and reflect on the question, “What would I fight for even if no one else stood with me?”